Well now I'm back at school again, getting back into the swing of things. I don't feel very motivated or positive about this semester though. I know that my classes aren't going to be the most exciting ones that I've ever taken or the easiest but I pray that God will help me develop a more positive attitude about them. Things are so much easier when I choose to be positive about something and not worry about it.
That is one of my greatest downfalls... worrying. I know I'm not alone in that aspect, it's one of humanity's downfall. But there are some people I know and those that I have read about in God's word who don't demonstrate fear or worry. I suppose fear is ultimately what worry is. When I read of David's incredible faith, it's inspiring beyond words. Here is a man who has messed up... A LOT but still encompasses God's favor and manifests His incredible mercy. And after we read about all of those who were after his life and who wanted to destroy him, tens of thousands up on every side... David was not afraid. He trusted in the Lord who was there.
I am only like David in the sense that I have messed up a lot, that I long for God's mercy and love in my life, and that I am undeservedly beloved by Him.
I'm so tired of fearing for my life and fearing my next action or thought. It's easy to become disgusted with yourself when you dwell on those things, what you've done wrong or who you've been, but I'm tired of doing that. God doesn't care about who we have been or what we have done in the past if we truly bring it to His feet, lay it down, and leave it there. I'm doing that now. I belong to God, I truly am beloved by Him. I am forgiven and delivered by righteousness, thanks to my precious Savior.... my Beloved. He is my Beloved. Everything else can melt away, and it will.
Behold you have come over the hills, upon the mountains.
To me you will run, My Beloved, you've captured my heart
Won't you dance with me, Oh
Lover of my Soul
To the song of all songs?
With you I will go, You are my love You are my Fair One
The winter has passed and the springtime has come
Won't you dance with me, Oh
Lover of my Soul
To the song of all songs?
Romance me, Oh
Lover of my Soul
To the song of all songs
-Dance With Me
Amy-Latin for Beloved
