Leave

I'm ready to leave, ready to go home, go somewhere else. If I could only leave behind the way I feel right now... that would be great.

I hate it, this feeling... whatever that might be. I keep letting myself be hurt. It really hurts when your heart breaks. Mine is breaking for a lot of reasons right now. I just don't know what's good for me I guess. I wish I could keep some people close to me forever. I'm so glad for friendship and for forgiveness. I'm so glad that God can come in and mend what's broken.

I'm going to miss you Chelsea.

I was thinking about all of the people that God has used throughout the Bible. The people that He chose weren't people who were near perfect or who were anything special. They were simple, ordinary people that let God come in and make their lives hard but what God through them was extraordinary and changed the lives of many. That's what it takes to be apart of this plan, to have a heart and a willingness to let Him do whatever He needs to do through you. If I want to take the easy way out, I don't have to be a Christian... or at least a good one that tries. But that's not what I want. I want to please God and, I know I'm kind of asking for it but, this life will be hard for me. I'm going to be ok with that because I'm simple and ordinary but my heart longs to belong to God and I want Him to use me. Even if that means I have to give up everything, be broken hearted, I'll do it because He is worth whatever I have to go through.

If it doesn't break your heart,

it isn't love.

If it doesn't break your heart,

it's not enough.