Soon and very soon

Soon

Soon and very soon

My King is coming

Robed in righteousness

And crowned with love

When I see Him, I

shall be made like Him

Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon

I'll be going

To the place He has prepared for me

There my sin erased

My shame forgotten

Soon and very soon

I will be with the One I love

With unveiled face I'll see

There my soul will be satisfied

Soon and very soon

Soon and very soon

See the procession

The angels and the elders

'round the throne

At His feet I'll lay my crown, my worship

Soon and very soon

Though I have not seen Him

My heart knows Him well

Jesus Christ the Lamb

The Lord of Heaven

-Brooke Fraser

I know that was kind of a lot, but I thought the whole song was worth posting. I can't wait to meet Jesus one day. I'm only given one life and I'm not going to wish it away but meeting my Saviour is one thing worth looking forward to. Yeah, I don't think I could write anything more hopeful than that song.

Goodness, God has been speaking to me so much through music lately... I love it. I feel like I've wasted a lot of time listening to so much crap that doesn't even matter, where people seriously sing about nothing. Now I just find it pointless to even try to listen to most of what's on the radio. It's kind of crazy because I have always been so in love with the beauty of music but I'm finding more beauty in music that brings glory to God than in the elements of composure.

Yesterday's chapel was really touching to me. Dr. Linneman's wife, Kayla, spoke. She's a psychiatrist and gets to work with tons of different types of people so, of course, that was incredibly interesting to me. She said something that most definitely stuck with me though. It's pretty simple, or what should be common knowledge, I suppose. She said that, "The way we think about things changes our feelings and our feelings change our behaviors." If we pour crappy, vulgar, or meaningless music and movies into our thoughts, that is how we will feel and therefore cause us to act differently. I most definitely can see this in my own life and so much in others as well. When I start listening to the radio instead of spiritually nourishing music, I begin to be apathetic towards spiritual disciplines and towards God. I hate that so much. When I watch movies that I know aren't good for me, they totally have an influence on my thoughts and images are stuck in my mind that I know aren't always pleasing to Jesus.

I guess it's not something that people normally think about. A lot of times we feel like we can just live life listening and watching things that we don't think God really cares about it, but I can see now that He does. At least for my life, as of lately, He has been calling me to be something so much more. He's wanting me to be better and that means changing things in me to be different for HIm. Even if that means a change in something as simple as music or movies, I will try my best to do it. I know this is going to be hard but like I said, it is something simple to change and Jesus is so worth it.

If you haven't been able to tell by now... this is going to be a long one.

So I've been contemplating a transfer. I've been thinking about it for a long time. A few weeks ago, I was planning on moving across the country. I have now learned that God has much different plans than I had for myself. You see, I was mapping out my life and it seemed that it was going to work perfectly. Well, fail on my part. Things are going to be very different than I expected, I guess God works that way sometimes. I'm going to stay at Greenville and hopefully graduate a year early (2011). I feel like if I went somewhere else I would have to start new and probably lack the spiritual aspect of learning. That is something that I am so thankful for, that the majority of my professors incorporate a shared love of Christ and a motivation to do everything for HIm because He has done everything for us. I love that so much and I love the people God has blessed me with here. Greenville probably isn't the coolest town to live in, but I guess I have the rest of my life to live in.... cool towns? Whateves. God has me here, He has been working in me, and I believe this is where I will graduate.

I love my dance team. The Pink Panthers are awesome! The best part is, we don't make the dancing about us. I feel that we all realize we wouldn't dance without God's blessing. We wouldn't have feet or legs or arms or anything without God and we owe whatever we have to Him. I wouldn't be able to turn or leap without muscles or a brain or breath. Whoosh, there is just so much to be thankful for, so much he has blessed us with. God is awesome in the talents he has bestowed upon people. I love seeing how diverse everybody is, it amazes me. I guess that's part of why people amaze me so much. We were made in His image and so being able to see God in other people just makes me want to love them so much more. God is so creative in how he has made us all unique but alike.

I'm still awake at 1:32, why? I don't know. I guess it's because I would rather write a blog and express myself to God about how cool he is than sleep. BUT I suppose God did create rest for a reason, after all even He needed it on the seventh day. Good night Jesus!